Senin, 23 Oktober 2017
Senin, 06 Oktober 2014
My Beauty Crown
Hollaaa Bloggy!
Here I am again! yay!
Haha I think I am too soon to coming back again here. I know you dont miss me so much yet. But I'm really missed you already :*
But actually I just doing nothing here...oopsiee :p
I dont know what to tell anyting here but I think I have one because I wake up and I feel so blessed to have this beautiful thing in my life.
Yes you knew it already, my hair! lol
I love my hair so much. Like nothing is more beautiful in my than my hair. I keep her like a baby. Yes she is my pretty baby :3
Basically I have natural straight hair. Like no curl, no bouncy hair, and no volume. Just straight!
Sometimes I try to get curly hair by night time curling without heat. I use head band, put on my head like bohemian, and twist little by little to the headband. I let it set overnight, I sleep and I take it off when I wake up. Voila! I have curly and bouncy hair!
But, another to make my hair curly. I also love to let my hair straight
Another than that, I also have some routine for my hair to keep healthy, shiny, and look beautiful. Maybe for some readers those would be tips and tricks for them (if I had readers haha).
1. I dont wash my hair everyday.
I dont really know about the scientific explanation. But if you wash your hair with shampoo, it will make your hair dry. Because hair also produce oil to make your hair looks shiny and get reduce when you wash your hair. So if you wash your hair everyday, you dont give time to your hair to produce oil and you get dry hair.
2. Use conditioner first then the shampoo.
Hahaha maybe you think this is weird. Every conditioner used for after shampooing. But not for me for over few months before until now. I dont know it will work for people out there. But to me it has much better resyult when I do that as my routine hair-wash. First I wet my hair with the water, then put my conditioner from almost my scalp until my end of hair. Not for you, dont touch your scalp with conditioner. Because it will make your scalp dry afterwards and cause dandruff.
Wait until 30-60 seconds and rinse with water. Then you can wash you hair with shampoo as usual. Dont have to put conditioner again afterwards ;)
3. Dont dry your hair when your hair is completely dry.
First, you will waste of your time. You will break your hair to give heat too much onto your hair. I almost never dry my my hair with the hairdryer. I cover my hair with my old clean shirt instead of the towel. Because it absorbs water from hair faster than regular towel. Well, it depends on the material of the shirt. You know which the material absorbs water fast. And when it is damp, not too wet and not dry. I let it down without heat. Or if I want to go somewhere and dont want to go with damp hair, I use low heat hairdryer.
4. Dont tie your hair too tight.
Besides it makes you headache, your hair will easy to get break. You can just give a little bit loose high pony tail for everyday hairdone. Or just pin your hair with bobby pins to keep your bang away your face.
5. I add olive oil and coconut oil to my regular conditioner.
You already know what are the benefits of those both oils, didnt you? So why not you add those oils to your conditioner? Give 3 spoons each oil to the conditioner bottle and shake it off. It gives me shinier, smoother, and healthier hair.
6. Use powder as my dry shampoo.
I dont know you will like this my idea, guys. But it helps me sometimes I'm in travel and I dont have time to wash my hair. My hair basically get flaky, oily, and sticky in hot weather in 2 days without shampooing. So when I I'm in a rush or dont have time to wash my hair, I will just dabbing my scalp with powder, give it little scratch with top of my fingers to give it nice distribution. It will absorb the oil of my hair and looks much better!
7. Natural hairmasks!
So this is my favorite part! Give my hair natural treatment to prevent stress hair. My hair layer is very smooth so it easy to get break. So I give it some nutritious ingredient for my natural hairmask.
But now I got hair tonic for my hair. It give me better strength for my hair so mot rally bad hair-fall.
I hope you like my post for today Bloggy...or people who read!
Dadaaah~
Here I am again! yay!
Haha I think I am too soon to coming back again here. I know you dont miss me so much yet. But I'm really missed you already :*
But actually I just doing nothing here...oopsiee :p
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| BBOOO! |
Yes you knew it already, my hair! lol
I love my hair so much. Like nothing is more beautiful in my than my hair. I keep her like a baby. Yes she is my pretty baby :3
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| She is so lovely, isn't she :3 |
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| Always let her down to let her free |
Basically I have natural straight hair. Like no curl, no bouncy hair, and no volume. Just straight!
Sometimes I try to get curly hair by night time curling without heat. I use head band, put on my head like bohemian, and twist little by little to the headband. I let it set overnight, I sleep and I take it off when I wake up. Voila! I have curly and bouncy hair!
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| Pillow face and lovely hair lol |
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| Curly hair for hang out! |
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| Effortless straight hair |
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| Going to work. Pale huh? |
1. I dont wash my hair everyday.
I dont really know about the scientific explanation. But if you wash your hair with shampoo, it will make your hair dry. Because hair also produce oil to make your hair looks shiny and get reduce when you wash your hair. So if you wash your hair everyday, you dont give time to your hair to produce oil and you get dry hair.
2. Use conditioner first then the shampoo.
Hahaha maybe you think this is weird. Every conditioner used for after shampooing. But not for me for over few months before until now. I dont know it will work for people out there. But to me it has much better resyult when I do that as my routine hair-wash. First I wet my hair with the water, then put my conditioner from almost my scalp until my end of hair. Not for you, dont touch your scalp with conditioner. Because it will make your scalp dry afterwards and cause dandruff.
Wait until 30-60 seconds and rinse with water. Then you can wash you hair with shampoo as usual. Dont have to put conditioner again afterwards ;)
3. Dont dry your hair when your hair is completely dry.
First, you will waste of your time. You will break your hair to give heat too much onto your hair. I almost never dry my my hair with the hairdryer. I cover my hair with my old clean shirt instead of the towel. Because it absorbs water from hair faster than regular towel. Well, it depends on the material of the shirt. You know which the material absorbs water fast. And when it is damp, not too wet and not dry. I let it down without heat. Or if I want to go somewhere and dont want to go with damp hair, I use low heat hairdryer.
4. Dont tie your hair too tight.
Besides it makes you headache, your hair will easy to get break. You can just give a little bit loose high pony tail for everyday hairdone. Or just pin your hair with bobby pins to keep your bang away your face.
5. I add olive oil and coconut oil to my regular conditioner.
You already know what are the benefits of those both oils, didnt you? So why not you add those oils to your conditioner? Give 3 spoons each oil to the conditioner bottle and shake it off. It gives me shinier, smoother, and healthier hair.
6. Use powder as my dry shampoo.
I dont know you will like this my idea, guys. But it helps me sometimes I'm in travel and I dont have time to wash my hair. My hair basically get flaky, oily, and sticky in hot weather in 2 days without shampooing. So when I I'm in a rush or dont have time to wash my hair, I will just dabbing my scalp with powder, give it little scratch with top of my fingers to give it nice distribution. It will absorb the oil of my hair and looks much better!
7. Natural hairmasks!
So this is my favorite part! Give my hair natural treatment to prevent stress hair. My hair layer is very smooth so it easy to get break. So I give it some nutritious ingredient for my natural hairmask.
- Tea Hairmask. Soak a back tea in hot water, let it for overnight. Wet your hair with the tea water, give your hair little massage, and cover your hair with hair cap/old clean shirt or towel that you dont mind to get stained. Let it for about 2-3 hour or any long you want to. Rinse it with water and continue with your regular washing hair routine. It will make your hair grow faster, give volume for you hair, easy to maintain, and to thicken your hair.
- Oils Hairmask. Use olive oil or coconut oil. Give distribution on to your hair from your scalp to the ends of your hair. Let it for few hours and wash your hair. Make sure you not leave the oil on your hair because will make your hair too oily afterwards. The oil mask will give you nice smooth and shiny hair.
- Yoghourt Hairmask. Add yoghourt, coconut/olive oil, honey, and mix them well in a bowl. Put and give a nice distribution onto your hair. Give a little massage. Let it for few hours as many hours as you want. The longer will be better because the ingredients will get absorbed in to your hair roots. This mask will gives you smooth hair, prevent any breakach and split-ends of ends of your hair, also gives your hair strengths. Oil will give you shiny hair.
But now I got hair tonic for my hair. It give me better strength for my hair so mot rally bad hair-fall.
I hope you like my post for today Bloggy...or people who read!
Dadaaah~
Minggu, 05 Oktober 2014
Laughter All Around
Bonjour!
Lol new language huh?
Just kidding! Yes I do learn new language now. But hold on, dont ask how hard it is. That is pain in the ass!
Fortunately, I got so nice teacher. Oh...wait. I dont want to tell you that one this moment.
*whispering* "I want to keep it as a secret. He is so charming. I dont want everybody knows I have a charming teacher".
I want to tell you about another story. New atmosphere, new experience, and much more laughter!
So let me start it.
Do you know Couchsurfing.com? (CS)
Oh, come on Bloggy! Dont be 'kudet' (kurang update - updateless)!
That is a website to connect the travelers/expatriates in a country to the locals. So they could meet, hang out, or even traveling together. It will be way more fun to traveling with the local because they know their place. And yaaa so many benefits from the website for travelers all over the world. You know what I'm trying to say, dont you.
So now, why the hell you are talking about travelers and traveling? Do you do travel? Really? You are broke as fuck!
Dem yu Bloggy!
I know I couldn't afford to travel...yet. I still have many things to do and fulfill the bills. I have work, study, hang out time with friends, and bla bla bla I'd rather to sleep than hiking to the top of mountain. Well, if I have partner (-not in crime), I would love to. Just not the right time for this moment. Okay? Understand?
Now let me to continue my story.
I knew about the website was from one of my group chat friends. She posted a photo that she was guiding 2 Germans around the city. And everybody wondering where they know her to guiding them. She said from CS and gave more the details.
I was interested to be like her. Guiding 'bules' (please, dont think that I am bule hunter-_-) to the city, sharing cultures, experiences, and look cool around Indonesian lol. It is kind of public secret that Indonesians are little bit 'racist' because they have higher expectation to the Caucasians. They appreciates more than to the Indonesians themselves. Thats why whenever I walk with bule they will smile and greet me very well than I just walk alone (truth!).
So I make an account on the site and start looking around what everything the site has, how to use it, and what everything we can do from the website. Still very tricky for me because I can see the peoples' profile and they got so many 'references' that opinion from the people she/he has hang-out together or was hosted (means like any connected friends) about him/her.
Then I found there also has events nearby my location. And my friend who told me about the site invites me to join. It was my pleasure to join.
So we met at the place where the gathering been held. That was many people who join. From many Indonesians, one Singaporean (I think), 2 Indians, and 4 Frenches.
Speaking English was a must because there was a multicultural event. Thats why I felt challenged to speak very well because I must train my English skill for sure. And fyuh~ everyone was understand everything I have said haha
So we did introduction for each comer to introduce themselves to everyone...fortunately my coice wasn't so micey lol
Soooo that is my new thing. Excites me!
Hope to get more and more things to get enjoy plus laughter with new people.
Au revoir! mwwwack :*
Lol new language huh?
Just kidding! Yes I do learn new language now. But hold on, dont ask how hard it is. That is pain in the ass!
Fortunately, I got so nice teacher. Oh...wait. I dont want to tell you that one this moment.
*whispering* "I want to keep it as a secret. He is so charming. I dont want everybody knows I have a charming teacher".
I want to tell you about another story. New atmosphere, new experience, and much more laughter!
So let me start it.
Do you know Couchsurfing.com? (CS)
Oh, come on Bloggy! Dont be 'kudet' (kurang update - updateless)!
That is a website to connect the travelers/expatriates in a country to the locals. So they could meet, hang out, or even traveling together. It will be way more fun to traveling with the local because they know their place. And yaaa so many benefits from the website for travelers all over the world. You know what I'm trying to say, dont you.
So now, why the hell you are talking about travelers and traveling? Do you do travel? Really? You are broke as fuck!
Dem yu Bloggy!
I know I couldn't afford to travel...yet. I still have many things to do and fulfill the bills. I have work, study, hang out time with friends, and bla bla bla I'd rather to sleep than hiking to the top of mountain. Well, if I have partner (-not in crime), I would love to. Just not the right time for this moment. Okay? Understand?
Now let me to continue my story.
I knew about the website was from one of my group chat friends. She posted a photo that she was guiding 2 Germans around the city. And everybody wondering where they know her to guiding them. She said from CS and gave more the details.
I was interested to be like her. Guiding 'bules' (please, dont think that I am bule hunter-_-) to the city, sharing cultures, experiences, and look cool around Indonesian lol. It is kind of public secret that Indonesians are little bit 'racist' because they have higher expectation to the Caucasians. They appreciates more than to the Indonesians themselves. Thats why whenever I walk with bule they will smile and greet me very well than I just walk alone (truth!).
So I make an account on the site and start looking around what everything the site has, how to use it, and what everything we can do from the website. Still very tricky for me because I can see the peoples' profile and they got so many 'references' that opinion from the people she/he has hang-out together or was hosted (means like any connected friends) about him/her.
Then I found there also has events nearby my location. And my friend who told me about the site invites me to join. It was my pleasure to join.
So we met at the place where the gathering been held. That was many people who join. From many Indonesians, one Singaporean (I think), 2 Indians, and 4 Frenches.
Speaking English was a must because there was a multicultural event. Thats why I felt challenged to speak very well because I must train my English skill for sure. And fyuh~ everyone was understand everything I have said haha
So we did introduction for each comer to introduce themselves to everyone...fortunately my coice wasn't so micey lol
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| Everyone minus the photographer! |
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| Me, asking permission to say something haha |
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| Ernie, the Finance manager of the gathering |
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| With Victorine (French girl hihi) |
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| Victorine really knows the active camera :D |
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| Pose pose pose! |
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| Yudhis the photographer, Reminds me of Indro Warkop (peace Mas Yudis if read this ^^v) |
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| Candid is not for Victorine lol |
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| Everyone minus the photographer again |
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| In front of the Fatahillah Museum |
Soooo that is my new thing. Excites me!
Hope to get more and more things to get enjoy plus laughter with new people.
Au revoir! mwwwack :*
Rabu, 24 September 2014
Feeling Better
Hi bloggy!
Today actually my thumb is feeling hurt. I peeled the hard skin but, unfortunately it also peel the soft skin and I was bleeding. So it is kind of hurting me when I press space pad on the keyboard. However, I really want to tell you about my feeling :(
Haha so here I am coming hereeeeee :D
You know????
I told my feeling to....ehmmm what should we call him? Mickey? too cute. Jenggot? everybody will knows it literally. Mr. X? too mainstream lol.
Apa yaaaaa? hahaha
Maybe we can call him with Mr. Nyebelin. Yes, he is so nyebelin. Because he is always replying with cold responses to my messages.
So, I told my feeling to him. Which is not like saying "Hey, I LOVE YOU!" nah nah. I dont really sure this feeling is a LOVE. Maybe just liking him because he was so sweet to me, respected me, and treated me right as a woman. That I have never gotten from the other man/boy in my life.
Haha yes, that is the reallity, bloggy!
I have never found any. Maybe I just haven't found one yet. But I found him.
Stop being too much about him, per -_-
Okay okay back to the topic. I told him that I can not stop thinking about him. I also tell him that "It doesn't seem like I get another chance to meet you in person to say this so I tell you now". Literally, my heart beats dropped when I was saying it!
Feels like I really never ever to meet him anymore in my lifetime, forever. And I always imagine that thing to prevent me on hoping he would feel the same as me, or he will ask me out again and spend time together to watch movie, having lunch, hang out in the coffee house, eating pizza together, watch movie on his laptop, tickling each other.......wait wait wait, this is not a time to flashback Periaaaaal!
Oh my Lord, I am sorry for any unstable feeling. Because I am one of the galauers-_-
After I said what is really in my heart, I feel so relax.
I won't regret anything. I won't expect more anymore then becoming a cool girl.
There are many fish in the sea.
Yah, I dont really need a boyfriend for now. I will have a lot of time being alone, relaxing, having body treatment at home, or hang out with friends, especially with my bestbestbestbestfriend that really knows me from my normal to my crazy lol.
It is really new for me because I always have somebody to send me message everyday, been so sweet to me, says love me more than 5 times a day, sending his selfies to me to realize how lucky I am having a handsome bf. But that is not Mr. Nyebelin. That was my LDR bf lol.
To be honest I have some people that really care about me, tell me that I am pretty so dont have to be worried about being alone in long time, wishing me be a gf of one of them, or some just literally saying that they really love me.
But I feel that they are just too early to say that serious thing. Many of the guys I met on internet. And we met not from a long enough time ago. When I heard they said love to me. I was like, "Really?".
I dont know how long I will feel this way, really need a someone but not ready to loving or to be loved.
I really happy to know there s somebody loving me. But I am still afraid of loving back. Even to start to love someone. I'm really scared of being broken-hearted girl.
Today actually my thumb is feeling hurt. I peeled the hard skin but, unfortunately it also peel the soft skin and I was bleeding. So it is kind of hurting me when I press space pad on the keyboard. However, I really want to tell you about my feeling :(
Haha so here I am coming hereeeeee :D
You know????
I told my feeling to....ehmmm what should we call him? Mickey? too cute. Jenggot? everybody will knows it literally. Mr. X? too mainstream lol.
Apa yaaaaa? hahaha
Maybe we can call him with Mr. Nyebelin. Yes, he is so nyebelin. Because he is always replying with cold responses to my messages.
So, I told my feeling to him. Which is not like saying "Hey, I LOVE YOU!" nah nah. I dont really sure this feeling is a LOVE. Maybe just liking him because he was so sweet to me, respected me, and treated me right as a woman. That I have never gotten from the other man/boy in my life.
Haha yes, that is the reallity, bloggy!
I have never found any. Maybe I just haven't found one yet. But I found him.
Stop being too much about him, per -_-
Okay okay back to the topic. I told him that I can not stop thinking about him. I also tell him that "It doesn't seem like I get another chance to meet you in person to say this so I tell you now". Literally, my heart beats dropped when I was saying it!
Feels like I really never ever to meet him anymore in my lifetime, forever. And I always imagine that thing to prevent me on hoping he would feel the same as me, or he will ask me out again and spend time together to watch movie, having lunch, hang out in the coffee house, eating pizza together, watch movie on his laptop, tickling each other.......wait wait wait, this is not a time to flashback Periaaaaal!
Oh my Lord, I am sorry for any unstable feeling. Because I am one of the galauers-_-
After I said what is really in my heart, I feel so relax.
I won't regret anything. I won't expect more anymore then becoming a cool girl.
There are many fish in the sea.
Yah, I dont really need a boyfriend for now. I will have a lot of time being alone, relaxing, having body treatment at home, or hang out with friends, especially with my bestbestbestbestfriend that really knows me from my normal to my crazy lol.
It is really new for me because I always have somebody to send me message everyday, been so sweet to me, says love me more than 5 times a day, sending his selfies to me to realize how lucky I am having a handsome bf. But that is not Mr. Nyebelin. That was my LDR bf lol.
To be honest I have some people that really care about me, tell me that I am pretty so dont have to be worried about being alone in long time, wishing me be a gf of one of them, or some just literally saying that they really love me.
But I feel that they are just too early to say that serious thing. Many of the guys I met on internet. And we met not from a long enough time ago. When I heard they said love to me. I was like, "Really?".
I dont know how long I will feel this way, really need a someone but not ready to loving or to be loved.
I really happy to know there s somebody loving me. But I am still afraid of loving back. Even to start to love someone. I'm really scared of being broken-hearted girl.
Jumat, 05 September 2014
I am sick :(
Hi my lovely blog, sorry been a while I am not coming here.
Sorry for my careless of you. I know, everytime I feel alone I always come back to you.
You are my only one friend I have who willing to be a place of my complaints, happiness, and sadness stories.
Well, I told you as first that I am sick rightnow. Yesterday I went to a hospital. Not for checking up my health. But for accompanying my boss. Probs, I was not in good condition and I easily get affected of viruses which are cough and flu.
It is serious for me. Because I have never had any diseases before. Just migraine or headache, but I just need sleep to relief it.
And now, it feels so torture me. I can't breath with both nostrils, cough whenever I can breath, and having sore throat.
The worst with this situation is, I am home alone and today is Saturday I supposed to be in my college and today there will be a middle test of translations. I cannot go any where but in bed. I am dying at home and I dont want everybody get affected by my viruses.
I hate being home alone. Makes me feel further about feeling alone.
You know, I am now so galau. Yes, galau, sad of no reason. Or maybe sad because of a stupid reason, missing someone who doesn't care about you haha.
Yes this sickness makes me feel alone then missing someone who doesn't even care about me (I guess so).
I am sorry bloggy, I haven't told you about this yet.
You want me to tell you now? really?
Okay....
You know, I have no any courage to date someone around me. Or get flirted by guys who are around me. Yes, there are, few guys. But they are just 'joking' on me whenever they say I am pretty, or they wanna date me. And I dont get it as a any propose or feeling butterfly in my stomach. I dont really get it. Just for fun.
So that I've tried few date sites (I feel embarrassed to confess this tbh lol).
There is Tinder, the app like 'hot or not'. The app will let you choose 1 of 2 choices, like or nope for the photo pops up. The photos are from people around. You can adjust with your preferences to meet, male or female, range of ages, and range of miles/km distance.
I adjusted to meet males, 20-35 year old, and 35kms away. Yes I like guys who are mature so that I prefer until 35 years old. Well, age doesn't measure someone's maturity. After you sweep like, and someone who you have swiped like also sweep like for you, you will matched with him and you are able to chat with him.
I knew that app was from my friend, she told me that she was on a date with a guy and showed up the pictures of them. The guy was really good looking and I asked her, where did you know him, I didnt know you had a friend that cool and handsome. She laughed and said, she met him by a date app. So yeah.... I was curious about that app and check it out on the playstore (yes, i am android user ^^v)
I installed the app, and starting to surf. Yeaaaahh, guys on it are HOT! I couldn't stop to keep in that app. Sweeping right for the handsome, mature, wear eyeglasses, beards, pointed nose, looked-smart guy.
It was still in the first day and I was crazy about that app. I got tons of match, but not all of them giving message to me. Well, maybe I am not as hot as they thought.
I tried to greet someone, it was a guy, matched with me. He wears eyeglasses, pointed nose, bearded, and tall (from the picture), and from the picture he looks chubby. Those are really my type! lol.
I was classically greeting him by say 'Hi'.
He greeted back with late reply and told me that he doesn't get notification from the app. I said no problem, and asked him is he wanna chat on another messenger, because I have WhatsApp. He said yes, and I gave my number.
He greeted me on whatsapp and we chat on it. He was really friendly, mature as his look (he has long beard), and funny. Actually, he is an expatriate in my city. He lives in the west almost central, and I live in the south. I dont know, I didn't ask many things about him, because our chat has many topics. We found some topics and we talk about it for a long time, we laugh, we were sending selfies, and we also had time to arguing. To let you know bloggy, he is 31 and I dont think that he is literally old for me. He is a nice guy, you know I have ever met with some foreigners who speaks English as their mother-tongue and they are just telling me that I have bad English and dont wanna talk to me anymore because I am too boring.
He was not like that at all, I think because he said he has been here for 1 year and living around locals so he understands about Indonesian in English speaking skills. Well, at first we didn't speak on the call, we were texting and sending pictures. And ya! He also never talks about any sexual things. It was very natural between me and him. Talk about cultures, our preferences, our looks, etc.
He was questioning me that I was interested in him, just because he is not in the same age as me. He thinks (perhaps)I was too young for him. Honestly, that's all I want. I want someone mature to take care of me, treats me right, understands me. I have heard a lot that a man with few ages older are understand and treat women more very well. But that was not an answer that I told him. I told him because he is 'bule' lol.
Yes, I also like bule. Not just because they look much handsome than Indonesian guy (for Indonesian girls).
Because they also have higher feeling of responsibilities toward women. They appreciate more, they are care more, sweeter, and more romantic. Those are my opinion, I have seen many bule couples and the guy treats his girl so sweet. I really wanna be like the girl.
But I think he was offended with my answer, he thinks he got a lot more things besides he is just a 'bule'.
Yes he is. He is the most mature guy I have ever met, treats me rightest, appreciates me the most, but hurts me the most as well afterwards (will tell you later bloggy :*)
And yaaaa, that was about how we met. The point is, I've fallen in love with him in the first sight with his physical and his behavior.
After few days of chatting, we are giving 'kode' or sign for making a meet-up haha.
I dont really like to make a move, but that time. I was really excited to get to know him in person. So I was just said "How about tomorrow? what time you like?" It was on Monday. He said about noonish. We planned to meet-up on Tuesday, 1 PM at a mall in the central.
The next day....
My phone internet was running out, and I wasn't available to connect with internet. So I sent him SMS to assure him we would meet at the time we have planned
I wasn't dress very fantastic as if on a date. Just a long-sleeve shirt and a trousers. He said we would go to a cinema so I wear something that I shouldn't have to wear sweater haha.
I was going to the mall by public buss. At first I plan to get APTB, a bus which directly from my place to the mall. But it was boring to wait over 15 minutes. So I got the little car to get to a busway shelter. I took from nearest shelter.
It was needed to transit once in a main shelter and continued to another buss.
When I was in the second buss, it was crowded inside at the shelter. And when I came in the buss, it was 2 male bules stand beside and in front of me. They were so tall like I was just as tall as their armpits.
I was wondering will I be the same beside Mike (ups, yes, his name is Mike hihi).
I was in the middle of the buss. Because in front of is women area and behind is men area.
When the buss stopping in the Monas shelter, the bules went out and some of the people. So the buss getting loose of people. I walked to stand in women's area. When I looked around to see where is the seat is available back and forward, I was stuck on a guy who holding his phone not far from where I stood. Was staring at him for few second, trying to recognize. Something de javu with his facial look. AH! That's him!
I was still just standing just 5 steps from him. Waiting him to look at me back, wasn't a long wait, I smiled at him. He smiled back. I was constantly waving my hand to him with a big smile, he looked still awkward to waving me back lol. I ran to him (not run literally, just did a fast step. It was tricky with the high heels haha)
"Are you Mike?"
"Yes.."
"I am Verial!" yes, you knew it, with a very very very big smile.
I was completely nervous afterwards. I stood beside him. Surprised me because he was not chubby at all. He was attractively tall, long hair, long beard, nice eyeglasses, and has nice scent (that is manly things that I really like from men, wangi!)
We talked in the buss. But I was still very nervous, spoke very quiet, he should've asked me many times "what? what did you say?" hahaha.
After we arrived to the shelter for going to the mall, he showed me his secret way to get the mall. The small street, very quiet, he said he loves walking in a quiet place like that and told me to dont tell anyone of the secret way. Haha I dont know why he is better at knowing the roads in Jakarta than me. I am a very very bad Jakartan.
When we were arrived, we first went to a coffeehouse. He ordered a coffee without sugar, and I ordered coffee flavored cake (I dont really remember the name on the menu list).
There, I started to feel comfortable beside him. He sat beside me. I usually sit facing my partner haha.
We were talking about many things.
To be honest, I have never made any psychical contact with people I just met. Only shaking hand for introducing myself. But when I was with him, I was not shy at all. I touched his beard, smelled his fragrance, tickled his belly, or held his hand when walking (after long day together). He also like to tickling me. Everything was fun around him. I was just not thinking about any sad things or problems in my life (that sometimes I feel it even in the crowded with some friends). Just with him, I can laugh and feel the butterflies in my stomach.
I dont know how deep is my feeling for him. I just can't stop thinking about him. Always wondering what his feeling for me. But seems like he doesnt really into me. It was only that day, and another day just ordinary days between us. I am not a type of girl who is always trying to get attention from her crush. I am a cool girl, I have heart, feeling, and I think logically (Why should I have to care too much about someone who doesn't care about me even not at all).
I know when people care about me, and when they are dont.
Yes, I also not always silent. I've tried to keep in touch with him by asking how's his life, and he as well asking me back.
He is completely not a bad guy, he is still kind guy after we met. I just think he doesn't feel the same way as mine. And it hurts me. Not so much, I am not a drama queen.
I was really want to tell him about my feeling. But not sure it will work out on our relation in the future. I just want to keep the chance to meet him one day again, and repeat everything we have done together that day. Maybe not as sweet as the first meeting, because we are just friends! haha.
We are good friends, even though I have special feeling for him. I dont care.
If he had the same way, he would tell me. Because he is a man.
If he didn't, it still fine for me.
And yeah, bloggy. That was my latest heartbreaking story. Haha I feel much better to tell you.
I should've told you before. But this time is perfect time to get better from that feeling and feel better to write it down.
See you latter, my friend! mwack!
Sorry for my careless of you. I know, everytime I feel alone I always come back to you.
You are my only one friend I have who willing to be a place of my complaints, happiness, and sadness stories.
Well, I told you as first that I am sick rightnow. Yesterday I went to a hospital. Not for checking up my health. But for accompanying my boss. Probs, I was not in good condition and I easily get affected of viruses which are cough and flu.
It is serious for me. Because I have never had any diseases before. Just migraine or headache, but I just need sleep to relief it.
And now, it feels so torture me. I can't breath with both nostrils, cough whenever I can breath, and having sore throat.
The worst with this situation is, I am home alone and today is Saturday I supposed to be in my college and today there will be a middle test of translations. I cannot go any where but in bed. I am dying at home and I dont want everybody get affected by my viruses.
I hate being home alone. Makes me feel further about feeling alone.
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| The tissue is my friend for sleeping |
You know, I am now so galau. Yes, galau, sad of no reason. Or maybe sad because of a stupid reason, missing someone who doesn't care about you haha.
Yes this sickness makes me feel alone then missing someone who doesn't even care about me (I guess so).
I am sorry bloggy, I haven't told you about this yet.
You want me to tell you now? really?
Okay....
You know, I have no any courage to date someone around me. Or get flirted by guys who are around me. Yes, there are, few guys. But they are just 'joking' on me whenever they say I am pretty, or they wanna date me. And I dont get it as a any propose or feeling butterfly in my stomach. I dont really get it. Just for fun.
So that I've tried few date sites (I feel embarrassed to confess this tbh lol).
There is Tinder, the app like 'hot or not'. The app will let you choose 1 of 2 choices, like or nope for the photo pops up. The photos are from people around. You can adjust with your preferences to meet, male or female, range of ages, and range of miles/km distance.
I adjusted to meet males, 20-35 year old, and 35kms away. Yes I like guys who are mature so that I prefer until 35 years old. Well, age doesn't measure someone's maturity. After you sweep like, and someone who you have swiped like also sweep like for you, you will matched with him and you are able to chat with him.
I knew that app was from my friend, she told me that she was on a date with a guy and showed up the pictures of them. The guy was really good looking and I asked her, where did you know him, I didnt know you had a friend that cool and handsome. She laughed and said, she met him by a date app. So yeah.... I was curious about that app and check it out on the playstore (yes, i am android user ^^v)
I installed the app, and starting to surf. Yeaaaahh, guys on it are HOT! I couldn't stop to keep in that app. Sweeping right for the handsome, mature, wear eyeglasses, beards, pointed nose, looked-smart guy.
It was still in the first day and I was crazy about that app. I got tons of match, but not all of them giving message to me. Well, maybe I am not as hot as they thought.
I tried to greet someone, it was a guy, matched with me. He wears eyeglasses, pointed nose, bearded, and tall (from the picture), and from the picture he looks chubby. Those are really my type! lol.
I was classically greeting him by say 'Hi'.
He greeted back with late reply and told me that he doesn't get notification from the app. I said no problem, and asked him is he wanna chat on another messenger, because I have WhatsApp. He said yes, and I gave my number.
He greeted me on whatsapp and we chat on it. He was really friendly, mature as his look (he has long beard), and funny. Actually, he is an expatriate in my city. He lives in the west almost central, and I live in the south. I dont know, I didn't ask many things about him, because our chat has many topics. We found some topics and we talk about it for a long time, we laugh, we were sending selfies, and we also had time to arguing. To let you know bloggy, he is 31 and I dont think that he is literally old for me. He is a nice guy, you know I have ever met with some foreigners who speaks English as their mother-tongue and they are just telling me that I have bad English and dont wanna talk to me anymore because I am too boring.
He was not like that at all, I think because he said he has been here for 1 year and living around locals so he understands about Indonesian in English speaking skills. Well, at first we didn't speak on the call, we were texting and sending pictures. And ya! He also never talks about any sexual things. It was very natural between me and him. Talk about cultures, our preferences, our looks, etc.
He was questioning me that I was interested in him, just because he is not in the same age as me. He thinks (perhaps)I was too young for him. Honestly, that's all I want. I want someone mature to take care of me, treats me right, understands me. I have heard a lot that a man with few ages older are understand and treat women more very well. But that was not an answer that I told him. I told him because he is 'bule' lol.
Yes, I also like bule. Not just because they look much handsome than Indonesian guy (for Indonesian girls).
Because they also have higher feeling of responsibilities toward women. They appreciate more, they are care more, sweeter, and more romantic. Those are my opinion, I have seen many bule couples and the guy treats his girl so sweet. I really wanna be like the girl.
But I think he was offended with my answer, he thinks he got a lot more things besides he is just a 'bule'.
Yes he is. He is the most mature guy I have ever met, treats me rightest, appreciates me the most, but hurts me the most as well afterwards (will tell you later bloggy :*)
And yaaaa, that was about how we met. The point is, I've fallen in love with him in the first sight with his physical and his behavior.
After few days of chatting, we are giving 'kode' or sign for making a meet-up haha.
I dont really like to make a move, but that time. I was really excited to get to know him in person. So I was just said "How about tomorrow? what time you like?" It was on Monday. He said about noonish. We planned to meet-up on Tuesday, 1 PM at a mall in the central.
The next day....
My phone internet was running out, and I wasn't available to connect with internet. So I sent him SMS to assure him we would meet at the time we have planned
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| His confirmation :) |
I wasn't dress very fantastic as if on a date. Just a long-sleeve shirt and a trousers. He said we would go to a cinema so I wear something that I shouldn't have to wear sweater haha.
I was going to the mall by public buss. At first I plan to get APTB, a bus which directly from my place to the mall. But it was boring to wait over 15 minutes. So I got the little car to get to a busway shelter. I took from nearest shelter.
It was needed to transit once in a main shelter and continued to another buss.
When I was in the second buss, it was crowded inside at the shelter. And when I came in the buss, it was 2 male bules stand beside and in front of me. They were so tall like I was just as tall as their armpits.
I was wondering will I be the same beside Mike (ups, yes, his name is Mike hihi).
I was in the middle of the buss. Because in front of is women area and behind is men area.
When the buss stopping in the Monas shelter, the bules went out and some of the people. So the buss getting loose of people. I walked to stand in women's area. When I looked around to see where is the seat is available back and forward, I was stuck on a guy who holding his phone not far from where I stood. Was staring at him for few second, trying to recognize. Something de javu with his facial look. AH! That's him!
I was still just standing just 5 steps from him. Waiting him to look at me back, wasn't a long wait, I smiled at him. He smiled back. I was constantly waving my hand to him with a big smile, he looked still awkward to waving me back lol. I ran to him (not run literally, just did a fast step. It was tricky with the high heels haha)
"Are you Mike?"
"Yes.."
"I am Verial!" yes, you knew it, with a very very very big smile.
I was completely nervous afterwards. I stood beside him. Surprised me because he was not chubby at all. He was attractively tall, long hair, long beard, nice eyeglasses, and has nice scent (that is manly things that I really like from men, wangi!)
We talked in the buss. But I was still very nervous, spoke very quiet, he should've asked me many times "what? what did you say?" hahaha.
After we arrived to the shelter for going to the mall, he showed me his secret way to get the mall. The small street, very quiet, he said he loves walking in a quiet place like that and told me to dont tell anyone of the secret way. Haha I dont know why he is better at knowing the roads in Jakarta than me. I am a very very bad Jakartan.
When we were arrived, we first went to a coffeehouse. He ordered a coffee without sugar, and I ordered coffee flavored cake (I dont really remember the name on the menu list).
There, I started to feel comfortable beside him. He sat beside me. I usually sit facing my partner haha.
We were talking about many things.
To be honest, I have never made any psychical contact with people I just met. Only shaking hand for introducing myself. But when I was with him, I was not shy at all. I touched his beard, smelled his fragrance, tickled his belly, or held his hand when walking (after long day together). He also like to tickling me. Everything was fun around him. I was just not thinking about any sad things or problems in my life (that sometimes I feel it even in the crowded with some friends). Just with him, I can laugh and feel the butterflies in my stomach.
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| He drew this when we were in the coffeshop |
I know when people care about me, and when they are dont.
Yes, I also not always silent. I've tried to keep in touch with him by asking how's his life, and he as well asking me back.
He is completely not a bad guy, he is still kind guy after we met. I just think he doesn't feel the same way as mine. And it hurts me. Not so much, I am not a drama queen.
I was really want to tell him about my feeling. But not sure it will work out on our relation in the future. I just want to keep the chance to meet him one day again, and repeat everything we have done together that day. Maybe not as sweet as the first meeting, because we are just friends! haha.
We are good friends, even though I have special feeling for him. I dont care.
If he had the same way, he would tell me. Because he is a man.
If he didn't, it still fine for me.
And yeah, bloggy. That was my latest heartbreaking story. Haha I feel much better to tell you.
I should've told you before. But this time is perfect time to get better from that feeling and feel better to write it down.
See you latter, my friend! mwack!
Jumat, 18 Juli 2014
I'm Just Moving on
If you look at the sky, be sure that you see the same sky as I look at.
Which you can hear my yearn.
Which the only one of our same space.
Which you told me to say hi when I miss you.
I know things would change in a second.
Rids everything we have done.
Everything we planned to.
And every promise us made.
Now is nothing.
I'm happy to be your nothing.
Because, nothing lasts forever.
We did too much compulsion.
To be same, yet we completely different.
Besides those things,
The way you try to walked step away,
Feels like you way too far from me immediately.
Yes I'm impatient, maybe.
I'm too much, maybe.
And I just make up excuses, it might be.
If it is possible to exchange feeling,
I want you to feel being ignored, and lied.
And I want to know what you think when you ignoring me.
You wouldn't can conceal how much disappointing it is
And I wouldn't even mind to it.
Sabtu, 22 Maret 2014
I Am Exotic, Aren't I?
Hallo cute! *looking at the mirror* lol
Finally I got a chance to write again here. My lovely blog, that always be there with me whenever I dont have anything to do and being insane dancing through the Beyonce's songs.
Haha anyway have you ever thought that Beyonce is a superwoman?
I love and she inspires me. You know why?
I hope not, because I wanna talk much about her why she can inspire me a lot haha.
But actually there is a biggest thing that I always amaze about her, her skin. The second is her booty. You maybe think I am a lesbian who admires woman's body.
Heck no. If you've ever read an article about research, there was written "girls also like to watch porn, but most of them see the body of the female artists. to compare what type of body that could turn on guys" (more or less, like that).
So, so do I. You can see Beyonce is very very exotic woman. She was crowned as the most beautiful woman.
I guarantee that guys also prefer to curvy that skinny.
And if you dont know what the difference between curvy or fat;
curvy is ) ( ,
and fat is ( )
So even I say that skinny is not good, neither is fat. Fat is not healty.
All you can do is loving yourself. But still do for a better life.
That is what I could get as I grew up. I've met so many people in my life.
Internet brings me so easy to get in touch with very far far away people. Then I could learn from them.
They could see and appraise what I thought that is my infirmity.
Remember, God has created humans with their varieties of skin.
If God made all humans in the same skin, world will be so boring.
Finally I got a chance to write again here. My lovely blog, that always be there with me whenever I dont have anything to do and being insane dancing through the Beyonce's songs.
Haha anyway have you ever thought that Beyonce is a superwoman?
I love and she inspires me. You know why?
I hope not, because I wanna talk much about her why she can inspire me a lot haha.
But actually there is a biggest thing that I always amaze about her, her skin. The second is her booty. You maybe think I am a lesbian who admires woman's body.
Heck no. If you've ever read an article about research, there was written "girls also like to watch porn, but most of them see the body of the female artists. to compare what type of body that could turn on guys" (more or less, like that).
So, so do I. You can see Beyonce is very very exotic woman. She was crowned as the most beautiful woman.
Okay lets back to my point. I see her very natural, she can show and be proud to be what she is.
And I wanna be like her because I've had so much bully since I was a kid and it was fed me up.
I am Indonesian. Indonesia has many type of people. There are bright and dark skin.
I have dark skin from my dad. Since in elementary school friends always call me "black" actually until now, but I'm not take it as a negative point anymore. Not because I get used to it, but because now I know the reason that I am not like the other girls who have nicely white skin.
I am not ugly, I am unique (...and exotic)
I also get big booty from my mom, people said it is FAT!
Hey, omg, what year is it?
Honestly, I've never seen any beauty or sexy from skinny girl. Sorry for skinnies, I dont mean to judge you. If skinny is not your fault, so you are lucky to not be bother to be fat even eat much meals. But if you try to be skinny just because wanna get guy's attention, you shouldn't have did that.I guarantee that guys also prefer to curvy that skinny.
And if you dont know what the difference between curvy or fat;
curvy is ) ( ,
and fat is ( )
So even I say that skinny is not good, neither is fat. Fat is not healty.
All you can do is loving yourself. But still do for a better life.
That is what I could get as I grew up. I've met so many people in my life.
Internet brings me so easy to get in touch with very far far away people. Then I could learn from them.
They could see and appraise what I thought that is my infirmity.
Remember, God has created humans with their varieties of skin.
If God made all humans in the same skin, world will be so boring.
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