I'm Just Moving on

  

If you look at the sky, be sure that you see the same sky as I look at.

Which you can hear my yearn.

Which the only one of our same space.

Which you told me to say hi when I miss you.

I know things would change in a second.

Rids everything we have done.

Everything we planned to.

And every promise us made.

Now is nothing.

I'm happy to be your nothing.

Because, nothing lasts forever.

We did too much compulsion.

To be same, yet we completely different. 

Besides those things,

The way you try to walked step away,

Feels like you way too far from me immediately.

Yes I'm impatient, maybe.

I'm too much, maybe.

And I just make up excuses, it might be.

If it is possible to exchange feeling,

I want you to feel being ignored, and lied.

And I want to know what you think when you ignoring me.

You wouldn't can conceal how much disappointing it is

And I wouldn't even mind to it.

I Am Exotic, Aren't I?

Hallo cute! *looking at the mirror* lol
Finally I got a chance to write again here. My lovely blog, that always be there with me whenever I dont have anything to do and being insane dancing through the Beyonce's songs.
Haha anyway have you ever thought that Beyonce is a superwoman?
I love and she inspires me. You know why?
I hope not, because I wanna talk much about her why she can inspire me a lot haha.
But actually there is a biggest thing that I always amaze about her, her skin. The second is her booty. You maybe think I am a lesbian who admires woman's body.
Heck no. If you've ever read an article about research, there was written "girls also like to watch porn, but most of them see the body of the female artists. to compare what type of body that could turn on guys" (more or less, like that).
So, so do I. You can see Beyonce is very very exotic woman. She was crowned as the most beautiful woman.

Okay lets back to my point. I see her very natural, she can show and be proud to be what she is.

And I wanna be like her because I've had so much bully since I was a kid and it was fed me up. 

I am Indonesian. Indonesia has many type of people. There are bright and dark skin. 

I have dark skin from my dad. Since in elementary school friends always call me "black" actually until now, but I'm not take it as a negative point anymore. Not because I get used to it, but because now I know the reason that I am not like the other girls who have nicely white skin.

I am not ugly, I am unique (...and exotic)

I also get big booty from my mom, people said it is FAT!

Hey, omg, what year is it?

Honestly, I've never seen any beauty or sexy from skinny girl. Sorry for skinnies, I dont mean to judge you. If skinny is not your fault, so you are lucky to not be bother to be fat even eat much meals. But if you try to be skinny just because wanna get guy's attention, you shouldn't have did that.
I guarantee that guys also prefer to curvy that skinny.
And if you dont know what the difference between curvy or fat;
curvy is )  ( ,
and fat is (   )
So even I say that skinny is not good, neither is fat. Fat is not healty.
All you can do is loving yourself. But still do for a better life.
That is what I could get as I grew up. I've met so many people in my life.
Internet brings me so easy to get in touch with very far far away people. Then I could learn from them.
They could see and appraise what I thought that is my infirmity.
Remember, God has created humans with their varieties of skin.
If God made all humans in the same skin, world will be so boring.

Falling In Love For The Second time

Haloo, what’s up my blog. Been long time again I’ve gone too long and come back when I don’t have any single person who is willing to listen up my story. Yeah, feel like I just come to you when I need you. But blog, you are still the greatest world’s friend of my life. Okay, I have best human friends, so you are the one which not a human lol. But sure, I will always count on you whenever I feel alone.

And you know what’s happening with my life? I have an update for you. No no no, it’s not about break-ups again. I wanna stop thinking about it. I was born not for such wasting things.
So now I wanna share about my carrier, yeah not at my main job. This is about I am teaching! XD

I feel so excited. Haha because I don’t know that I could do this. Like I was a stupid student, and now I should teach students. Okay okay, these are students not for a class for a school. I give a course for them in different place and time. Like I spend time for my students and I need to make schedule to teach them in a week. Three days for the one, and two days for the another one. As you know, I am in university only on Saturday and on Sunday I dont wanna disturbed with any of work things. I feel different in teaching or working in an office. Teaching is much happier for me. Even though I dont have any education to educate. I just feel I've ever been a student so I could know what they haven't know about lesson. So that I teach them whay I used to learn. This is like my exact world. Being around student, I teach them, and they could get what I've taught. That is happiest feeling. I feel like I am falling in love for the second time, to teach. 

Oh before I describe about my teaching, I wanna introduce my students. They are only 2 students! HAHA

But what? I am still so excited about this. The first is a 7th grader student, and i teach him English. This is very hard at first I taught. Because when I was in 7th grade, I was just learn to know some letters, how to spell them in “English” accent, directions, and some basic English more. But nooooww, it’s way far from what I used to learn! He wasn’t need about letters, words, sentences. “My school not learn them anymore, I’ve learned when I was in 3rd grade” he replied when I asked about my old 7th grader English lesson haha. So I need to change my lesson plan for him. Then, I’ve starded with tenses. And yes, I know just a little about this. So I tried to start with the very basic tense ; simple present, past, and future tense. Fortunately, he was still not really understand with this subject. With some explanation, examples, and exercises that I’ve given to him, he started to opens his eyes and understand it. Happiest feeling to see what I’ve taught and the student is understand. And I started to make lesson plan for him with some subjects and exercises with my creativity and also from internet :D

Now, the second student is a little cute girl. She is 3rd grade. And I teach her some lessons of her study. Hmm, those are 5 lessons. Math, English, Science, Social, Bahasa Indonesia. No need long time to be close emotionally with her, at first day I taught her we were so close. Like as sisters, maybe because I don’t have younger sister, and she doesn’t have elder sister so we are connected emotionally easily. Proves when the second day we were studying together (I call this because I act like study together with her, not teach her like formally teachers do), there was a bazaar that held close to our house because our houses just take 3 minutes by walk. She asked me to go there together. At first I refused because it was at night and too late for going out for little girl like her. But she was very smart, she asked for permission to her father and said will go with me then she is win. So we went together and she told me so much stories from school, friends, and family. I listened up all her said, and replied with some advice that suitable for kids. Okay, I feel like I am so mature, but I like to be around people who accept me as they need me and exited with my existence. Yeah, sometimes I feel so alone in middle of a group of people. Move on! She looks very excited that I am with her, me as well, absolutely. All I hopes are she will be a good girls to everyone even though she is already, respect me as her teacher, and appreciate me as her friend.

Yaaaa that was my story for these days. I feel so happy with this happened to me. Everything that comes to my life, I’d appreciate it like I wanna write them down for my book of life. Unfortunately I don’t have enough time to write them all. With very exhausting work at office. Yet, I am happy with lots of experience. I am happy with all God has given to me.

See you very very very very very soon my blog. Mwack!

Beauty of Indonesia

Some people say, "Why should go abroad if you dont know your own country?"

Yes, it's true. Indonesians too much underestimate their own homeland sometimes. To say going abroad it looks cool. Only people with lots of money and high intelligence who are able to go abroad.
But heeey, do you know about the beauty of Indonesia?

We also have bunch of places that you will feel like in abroad. Dont believe me? Let here see this picture :

9gag prooves it

Lots of people I know vacation abroad, especially those of the upper middle class. Go all the way up to Europe. Yes there is nothing wrong, I also want one day to Europe. But look at your own country, which is incredibly beautiful.

Talk to local people, they have a lot of interesting stories about their hometown. If you want the streets looking for clothes in Italy, check Kauman Kampung Batik in Solo, if you want to see beautiful mountains in Scotland, see Lake Toba in North Sumatra first .. Before looking at the Eiffel Tower, check out Tana Toraja traditional house. Before watching Kabuki in Japan, watch the Wayang Golek show.

Do not forget your country. Indonesia is not less beautiful and no less amazing than the other countries. Open your eyes and realize that your country also has the mountains, sea, sand, historic landmarks, tall buildings, and so forth. This is your country, your own flesh and blood derived from this country. Let we love, and learn to appreciate our country.

Trip to Anyer, Banten

Anyer is a beach town in Banten. It is located at Anyer, 38 km from Serang City. The beach is facing the West, so we can see the view of Mt. Rakata (the remaining / child of Mt. Krakatau that exploded in 1833) and the sunset. A beautiful sea sight with all activities such as Jet Ski, Speed Boat, Para Sailing and other aquatic sport, those types of activities can be found here, as well as sunset view from the beach and an old lighthouse at Cikoneng. A lot of hotels from jasmine to international 5 stars can be tourist best choices to stay. Anyer is a popular beach resort for Jakartan (like me)
Anyer beach has many unique enchantments. Its white sands amaze many tourists. They are so pure; we can feel the softness of the sands. The deep blue sea attracts many divers around the world because its various sea lives are so completely perfect. The sea breeze can make visitors' mind fresh, out of stress and enjoy. And the last enchantments that can make Anyer beach as the most favorite place to visit is the view of the legendary Krakatau Mountain and its historical lighthouse.
It is located in the west coast of Java about 120km from Jakarta. Sanghyang, 10 km off Anyer beach, is an easy diving destination for Jakartan divers who can only spare a weekend. This volcanic island offers white carbonate-sand beach and a wealth of underwater life, while Anyer offers a gorgeous sunset.
 (http://www.indonesia-tourism.com/banten/anyer-beach.html)
But, there are hotels which not allow the visitors to go to the beach freely. Eventhough the hotel serves sea sight as the best view of the hotel. Dont, worry, you can drive for a little or you can take public transportation until the Pantai Pas (Beach).
Fortunately, in Mambruk Hotel where I stayed, I could go to the beach for a little. That was pretty good, as you can see from my photos. I still could see the sea sight, walked on white sand, and it was probably to rent a boat to go to small island in front of the hotel. But I didnt get much enough to rent it. Because I was there for fulfill the duty, not for holiday. So my time was not much :(

Here are my photos in Anyer, Banten. I got so much lesson and relax time here. With met many new people, fresh air, beautiful beach, sunsets and sunrises. Feel grateful I had chance to get here for duty. Like holiday while in duty :D
So here there are....


Day 1

Taking pictures of the neighborhood

Mountain were amazed me along the trip

Arrived! Here was almost sunset. Let's wait awhile :)

Took a selfie :3

With Teh Nunu (one of my roomates)

With another roomate, old but gold

Selfie again!

Greeting from the sunsets

Still get astonished with the sunsets

There are boats over there!

Day 2

Spice Girls! haha j/k. Enjoy the view before meeting started

In the meeting of workshop

Discussing about managerial non formal education

Day 3

In front room of attendants (oh yes I look fat -_-)

See the water is so clear..and my back is a seaa!

Ok, that was a thumb blocking on the photo

 

Not that cold actually :D

Never been as happy as this time while working

Posed before go back to the room

Someone bought a baby octopus from the beach!

On little becak (that is just for display but we played with that ahaha)

The last minute in the room before check out :(

Feel like Balinese hihi

Those are manggoes just upon my head!

 

The duty was finished :( And I got wrong spelled name -_- BERLYANI, please. ugh nvm

With roomates visit market before go back home, they are very beautiful aren't they ;)

Me, with double backpack, back and front hahaha

And those are the photos of my holiday due the duty hehe. I got many experiencess from those people who attend the workshop. Eventhough I was the youngest, I felt so grateful I could be in this part earlier. I know about non formal education further and makes my self-esteem improved.

Thankyou for spending your time to take a look my blog. Hope you have a nice day! mwack!

Trip Jakarta - Anyer by Public Transportation

Heiii how are you readers....! Feel like I have many readers LOL.
Hummm, been long time not show up here and had bunch of spiders web all around my blog ahaha. Joke!
Did you know? I was travelling just alone! To another city! Anyer! Took 6 hours!
Oh, did I say that I live in city of Banten province? Yeah, actually I live here in South Tangerang, Banten Province. And Anyer in Banten Province as well.
Why did I say it from Jakarta and took 6 hours to get same Banten?
Hold up hold up....lemme tell ya.
I live in South Tangerang and it is practically exactly just seperated by a river from South Jakarta. Soooo, if I said I live in Jakarta or I live in Banten Province, I wasnt wrong haha.
This is the map if you dont believe me :p





Then, where my Alone Trip story?
Haha okay I just started up with the area definition.
Did you know why I travelled to Anyer, and alone?
Actually I wasn't take the trip with my own plan. But it was from Education Departemen of Province to held a Workshop for every Community Learning Centre in Banten Province each city. I chose from the one of them, but only one person of foundation who could attend it. So that I went just myslef. Believe or not, I took public transportation and just spent about Rp 50.000,- for the fare.

Strated with...Oh, to let you know, I just take public transportation to get Anyer from South Tangerang.

I went to a busses terminal in Kampung Rambutan (East Jakarta) by 510 from Ciputat or you can get the bus in Lebak Bulus Terminal, I paid Rp. 3.000,-. Here its look :




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I went by that buss untill Terminal Kampung Rambutan, the busses stop.
After that I just need to choose any buss with destination to Merak, because I need to stop in Terminal Bayangan Cilegon. Just ask to the buss driver "Cilegon?" if he replies "Ya ya, lewat Cilegon" (Yes, yes, passes Cilegon). Kinda forgot which one I chose. Because too many busses with Merak destionation. I paid Rp. 23.000,-. Here the Kampung Rambutan Buss Terminal :


Busses come at this gate
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Busses in the terminal with several destionations
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Busses go out with this gate
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In the buss, probably took 3 hours. Because passes many highway's gates. I spent with sleep and taking some moments of view outside. Unfortunately, the buss went fast so the picts are blured haha.
Dont forget to pay attention to the street signs! So you'll know what area that you've passed and you wouldnt be like me -_-
Here my sad story :
Every buss driver should has assistant to sell tickets to passengers and to hear any passenger needs. I gave him message to remind me in Cilegon when I pay the ticket he gave me. Then when it was in Cilegon the driver assistant said "Cilegon...Cilegon!". And you know what, I fell asleep!
No, I didn't hear that, Sir! I was fell asleep! W Y U NO WAKE ME UP!
Yeah readers, my bad. All I remember just when I woke up I saw the street sign that shows "Merak" with go straight symbol.
"Whaaaattt? I just missed Cilegon?!!" I was panicked like I'd never fulfill my duty or even come back to Jakarta and meet my family. Oh yes, it is hyperbole.
I asked the old guy behind my seat "Pak, Cilegon sudah lewat ya pak?" (Sir, did Cilegon has passed).
He replied "Iya, barusan aja lewat. Sekarang udah mau ke Pelabuhan Merak" (yes, just passed it. Now we are going to Merak harbor"
Harborrr???? Oh my God I didn't ever been to Harbour and dont know what I should I do now oh God T.T
Then I asked him again "Terus kalau mau ke Cilegon bagaimana Pak? Saya sebenernya mesti turun di Cilegon" (Then how to get back to Cilegon, Sir? Honestly I should stop in Cilegon).
"Ooh, nanti naik bis yang ke arah Jakarta aja lagi. Nanti juga lewat Cilegon lagi" (oh, later you just take the buss to Jakarta, it will pass in Cilegon as well).
After say thanks to him, I felt so relax.

The view was so beautiful. All along the way I saw are beautiful blue sea because of sunshine brightly and big ships that maybe for importing and exporting products. I astonished to saw all of the beautiful view until I get the Merak busses terminal. And it also an harbor.
I tried to ask how to get Anyer before I take the buss to Cilegon. I asked to a man who I assumed he is from this place and knows the way around terminal.
"Kang, ka Cilegon kumaha nya?" (Mr, how to get Cilegon?).
Oh, because there is people talk with Sundanese, so I also talk with the language. My mom is Sundanese and I am good at it hehe.
The man just replied "Oh, iya tau neng. Sini akang anter" (Oh, I know. Here I ride for you).
I didn't understand why he didn't just tell me how to get there. I walked little to follow him, he took his motorcycle. And I know, he is tukang ojek! (ojek man) it is same as taxi driver but they use motorcycle to carry the passengers. And the price is slightly different. Because using his own price. So you probably find different prices between one and another tukang ojek. We MUST to ask first before you take ojek. Dont pay after you get the destination. They will suck your blood!
And also one tip for yo, dont ask how to get a place to them if you prefer to take another cheaper public transportation. You can ask to police officer, or people who sells anything. Just people who doesnt have any business with transportation like drivers of taxi, ojek, becak, etc etc
Dang, that was my first word in my brain. Immediately I sad to him "Kok ojek? Saya cuma tanya jalan. Soalnya saya mau ke Anyer" (why ojek. I just asking a way. Because I wanna go to Anyer)
"kan gampangan pake ojek neng. Akang anter sampe cilegon. Nanti tinggal naik angkot arah Anyer" (using ojek is easier, isn't it. I'll carry you until cilegon. Then you just take public transportation to Anyer)
"Nteu ah Kang, nuhun" (Sorry I dont wanna, thankyou)
Then I walk a little more and find a man wears light green waistcoat with word POLISI (police). Yes, perfect person for asking. I came close to him and ask the way again.
"Neng naik angkot merah aja yang sebelah sana, nanti turun di simpang tiga, dari situ ada mobil silver sampe Anyer" his explaination. (You can take the red car overthere, stop in Simpang Tiga, then you take the silver car until Anyer)
After say thankyou I just go to find the red car. Not far I found it and of course dont forget to ask wether your destination is suitable with the car's direction destination.
"Simpang Tiga, Kang?" (Simpang Tiga, Sir?)
"Muhun, Neng" (Yes). With no more words, I get in it.
But... If you didnt have problem like mine, you can stop in Cilegon and take the cute purple color car. It looks like this:


With labels "Simpang - PCI"

But, because of I was lost and accidently passed Terminal Bayangan Cilegon, I took another car. It was red color with Simpang Tiga destination as well (thank God). Here its look :


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Fifteen minutes later, the driver told me "Simpang, Neng" (Simpang, Miss)
"Oh, nuhun kang" (thankyou, Sir) I went out and paid Rp. 6.000,- to him.
Then I immediately found the silver car make a line along the road. To make sure again, I asked the driver "Ke Anyer Hotel Mambruk ya, Bang?" (To Anyer, Hotel Mambruk, isn't it?)
"Iya neng, Iya" (Yes, Miss. Yes)


I got in it and just sat down with many passengers in front of me the natives. They talk in Sundanese language but some of them speak Bahasa with sundanese accent.
This part is the longest trip by car. Because it goes to the road which has many holes and passes with many big cars such busses or trucks. All the road just dry sand and goes like smoke will make you coughing. Dont take it serious, if you arrived to the beach, you will see blue sea with calm waves, fresh air, village, and kinda silent place.
It took for about 1,5 hours from Simpang to Mambruk Hotel, Anyer. Place where I have duty and stay there for 3 days. Actually there are many hotels there because the beach is quite well-known by people to spend holiday at beach. Here are the fare of the car :
Simpang - Pasar Anyer Rp5.000,-
Simpang - Hotel Marbella (Anyer Beach) Rp10.000,-
Simpang - Pantai Carita Rp15.000,-
Simpang - Labuan Rp20.000,-
So I paid Rp. 10.000,-

Finally, lets count how much I pad for the fare..

Ciputat - Kp. Rambutan Rp. 3.000,-
Kp. Rambutan - Merak Rp. 23.000,-
Merak - Simpang Tiga Rp. 6.000,-
Simpang Tiga - Mambruk (Anyer) Rp. 10.000,-

Total : Rp. 52.000,- !!


But yeah, it was pretty hilarious experience I've ever done. It'd be easier and probably cheaper and more comfortable to use private car. But I liked to take trip by public transportation. The reasons are I was alone, and I cant drive a car :D
So thankyou so much for reading my experience of my trip to Anyer. I know it is boring for you. But this is the way I write maybe would help anybody who wants take a trip by public transportation too. I will post another thread which uploaded many photos in Anyer and my social activities there. Was excited because I met many people from education department, and I was the youngest! lol yeah.

Whoop! See you soon..... mwack! xx

Promise To Me

I'm missing him like crazy rightnow.
He promised to me he'll be at home after work and go talk to me.
He said he works in the morning and finish in evening. Now is 00:44 and he has 6 hours later than me.
He still not showing up. Where's he now? I can even count how long we've not talking a week more.
Feels hard to spending a day without his face. Fuck text, I wanna see him. Extremely wanna hug him and never let it ends. He makes me crazy. Like nobody could do to me.
Argh, now he turns my mood down. Feelin blue to know that he wont come to what we usualy do, Skyping.