It was too much to holding inside myself. Wanna complain about everything that has happened, wanna deny the people who blame me, wanna go away from the grumpied people around me. everyone just give me boring, sad, uncomfrotable.
Thankful enough I was found the one who can make my day is not waht i was said. He makes me listen to him, smile, and amazed with his sweet smile and sexy eyes. Also with my besties that always cheer me up whenever I'm down. Eventhough they never knew what the hardest thing I felt. They just make me happy all the time when we are together.
I dont know if there are no Danijel, and my bestfriends. They are my power of living. My power to be readu to face the life.
I'm never get any apreciate or reward with what i have done. Great thing. Even when in my birthday.
There was nothing special except Danijel's messages, friend's birhtday greetings. The time when I got almost perfect GPA in college. They just say "ooh, congrats" what-_-
And lets look to my brother, he always give them bad news. Impromtu marriage, his wife gave a birth with caessar, and the last is he is in the jail because of he fight with a guy!
How much money that my parents need to help his casses?? many million ruphias. That big amount of money must be enough for my school tuition until i get bachelor degree.
But what is that for? WASTING MONEY FOR USELESS THING THAT MY BROTHER HAS DONE.
Yes, he is my brother. But this is my right to have jealouse feeling of what I never had and one of my siblings had it from my parents.
But what my parents give to me? long sad story, complainment, bad mood at home, blame me with everything wrong, and many many things that describe they are not appreciate me as a nicer daughter.
But everything is gonna be change. I know what my needs. I dont give a fuck
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